Apart From You I Can Do Nothing

It feels like everything someone would normally do in preparing to record an album is different for me. This whole project is absolutely amazing and such a learning experience. I have always known that what I carry is so different then most singers and musicians but I don't think I have ever been more aware then I am now.

John 15:5 5 “I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing.

I don't feel like I am falsely humble and I know I have a powerful voice, but at the same time unless the Lord comes and gives me something I can not do it on my own. Even most prophetic singers can sing anything that its in them but with who I am unless the Spirit comes and breaths on it, its just won't work. I have three nights of recording and we are hoping and praying that will happen. If it does not happen there is nothing I can do in and of myself to make it happen. So we are in the divine experiment to find a way to have that happen in the context of recording. You see, where I am at and who I am ministering to has so much to do with what comes out of me. I feel like I have never been more challenged in this area as I am right now. I love what I am doing and there is no one I trust more then the people I am doing it with. I am trying not to stress out and just lean into the Lord. I am experiencing more warfare then expected but the Lord fights for me and this album. I believe its His dream that He put in me so He will show himself faithful!!!

I feel all this stuff in me but I would say it has not broken through yet. I am praying and contending for the fullness of what God has for this time to emerge.
Last night was our second night or recording and we did it at the church. It had more of a house of prayer feel to it. Some good stuff came out. There was a "call to prayer" which I loved. One of the main things I feel like I have to release is songs for the "harvesters" so I am praying that will come out soon.

2 Cor 12:9 9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

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